The following is an interview by Siobhan Brooks from her book about sex workers of color called, “Dancing
Shadows: Interviews with Men and Women of Color Sex Workers,” which she is currently looking to publish.
[Chapter 16]
Tyra is a mixed (Black and white) transsexual woman. She has been a prostitute
for fifteen years, and has done porn films. In this interview she talks about her life as a transgender woman of color
in relation to her transition, being of mixed race, education, being HIV positive, and barriers she has come across in trying
to find other type of work.
Siobhan Brooks: Where are you from?
Tyra: I was born in St. Louis, Missouri,
but I was raised in California most of my life.
SB: When did you start going through your
transition process as being transgendered?
T:
I can remember wearing my sister’s clothes at ages seven and eight. But when I totally made the transition, when
I started taking hormones and all, that was when I was twenty-one. I was already cross-dressing.
SB: What side effects did you have while
taking hormones?
T:
Oh, yes. Mood swings, morning sickness. I’ve just had my kidney tested, and I’ll get the test results
soon. Hormones can destroy your kidney or your liver.
SB: How long did these side-effects last?
T:
About two weeks.
SB: Are you postop or preop?
T:
I’m preop.
SB: What was your family’s reaction
to you coming out as transgender? Do you think they knew that, or do you think they confused that with being gay?
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T:
They confused it with being gay. They kind of knew all along, (smile) but when they thought I was gay they didn’t
accept me for a while, and finally they did. I then started taking the hormones and all of that came along with prostitution.
SB: How did you get into prostitution?
T:
I did it when I was like sixteen or seventeen for fun. I was having sex with guys, then I realized that they would give
me money, so I took the money. When I make the transition to being a transsexual that’s when I really started
doing it, and I did because I had to. My family didn’t agree with the idea of me being gay anyway, so when I started
my transition they cut me off [financially]. When they did that I was dramatized, I didn’t know what to do.
Before, I knew that if I needed to I could run home for a place to stay or if I needed some money. But then, all of
the sudden, they just said, “no.” So, I needed money, and a place to live, and I went out on the stroll.
From that day on it’s been that way. I’m thirty one now.
SB: Do you prostitute only in the Bay Area?
T:
I’ve worked all around the country. But now it’s been mainly in San Francisco because I was busted in Oakland,
and they [the police] put me on this program called SOAP. If they bust you for prostitution, and they give you SOAP
for two years, if you’re caught in any known area for prostitution, they can take you to jail. The first time
they catch you, it’s for fifteen days. After that the time just goes up and up- sometimes they even give you double
time. So, I left Oakland alone. When I first came to the Bay Area this is where I worked---San Francisco.
SB: Were you ever arrested in San Francisco?
T:
Yeah, but they let me go in an hour or two. But it wasn’t for prostitution, they were doing a sweep, and they
picked me up. An undercover cop arrested me.
SB: What is the basic procedure when the
police bust prostitutes on a sweep?
T:
They just come out in a paddy wagon and if you’re just standing around or if you look like a hooker, they’ll just
throw you in the paddy wagon. Undercover cops usually pose as Johns. If you get them as “Johns” what
they do is try to offer you a price. Once you name a price, they bust you for prostitution. I don’t
get busted that much because of how long I’ve been working the streets.
I usually don’t get busted by undercover cops. The last
time I was busted in Oakland, it was by an undercover cop with an accent, I always let that accent fool me because I think
that they’re foreigners. But most cops don’t have foreigner accents, because most of them were born in America.
SB: How are safety issues dealt with?
Do you usually go alone?
T:
I usually work alone because if I’m with a whole bunch of women, it will just be more competition. Many Johns
aren’t serious about money if there are a lot of women, because they figure that they have all that to look at.
When I’m working by myself and a John approaches me, I know he means business.
SB: Do you feel pretty safe with the Johns?
Has a John ever been violent towards you?
T:
Oh, yes. My first night I got my two bottom teeth knocked out by my second John. I’ve encountered violence
all through my years of prostituting.
SB: What kind of differences have you noticed
prostituting as a male before your transition, and prostituting as a transgender woman in relation to money?
T:
I really can’t tell because back then I was doing it for fun, I didn’t have to do it. So, I don’t
think I could because I wasn’t serious about it as I am now. Now I have to do it.
SB: Why do you feel that you have to do it?
T:
For one thing---just being bi-racial and transgender...I mean in this society—even in San Francisco—it’s
a taboo. I’m passable to a point, but when I work a job, and after I’ve been there for a while, people find
out. You know, they whisper to each other—just all kinds of different shit I’ve encountered. That’s
what leads me back to being a hooker, ‘cause I don’t like putting up with the bull.
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SB: Can you describe an encounter you’ve
had at a job where you feel like you were forced out for being transgender?
T:
Mmmm...There was a job I worked in St. Louis. They [the owners of this business] said I was fired for being late, which
I was late, but don’t think it was that. Because one of the owners of this place had the hots for me, and his
wife knew that, and she was the one that fired me. I don’t know for sure if it was because of my sexuality, it
could have just been because he had the hots for me. It could have been a female thing. For the most part I haven’t
been fired from jobs, I’ve quit. I quit because of people whispering, talking about me, making jokes about me...I
just get tired of that. When they [co-workers] came in they started whispering to each other across the room.
And I know what they were saying because they’re smiling, looking, and pointing. That’s irritating after
awhile.
SB: How did you make the transition from
prostitution into porn?
T:
When I work I meet all different types of people: different classes, races. I had been approached several different
times by people [to do porn]. This one guy used to always approach me about it and I was kind of needing the extra money,
so I said, “What the hell.” I’m transgendered, I’m out in the street turning tricks. I
mean porn—what could be worse about that? (laughs) So, I did it, and once I got into it I didn’t
like it. They didn’t want to pay me what I wanted. They told me that their clients were looking for white
girls. Also because I’m pre-opt, they wanted me to cum, and get erect like a man. But if you’re going
through hormone therapy, taking estrogen, you can’t do that. Whereas a lot of transgenders that are in porn
can get erect and ejaculate, usually they have had many hormones, silicone, and all that. So, they can still perform
like a “man.”
SB: So, at this porn place, did you do the
film and when you were finished, they said they would pay you, and they wouldn’t?
T:
When I first started, I did the film and got educated with my first experience and I was like, “Hey, I want more money.”
They came up with all kinds of different excuses as to why they wouldn’t pay me more. So, I was like, forget it.
I just won’t do it.
SB: So, you don’t do porn anymore?
T:
No, I haven’t been. But I met this guy who is like my agent, and he is supposed to be hooking up something where
we do our own porn together. But even without him, I may do that myself. Porn is a good business, especially when
it comes to Black queens. In Europe they make more money over there, than they do over here.
SB: Why do you think they make more money
in Europe?
T:
I don’t know. I just learned that when I was doing porn, just hearing them [Black queens] talk about it.
I’ve never been to Europe, but it makes me wonder why they want more white queens than Black queens.
SB: You mentioned racism within the porn
industry, how else have you encountered racism in relation to clients and making money?
T:
Well, many clients don’t know I’m Black until they hear me speak. They usually think I’m Spanish,
Indian, or Puerto Rican---even other queens don’t always know that I’m Black until I tell them. The reaction
from clients is usually, “Oh, I didn’t know that” or “Well, you’re cool because you’re
light and you have straight long hair.” They tell me that I don’t really look Black or they ask me what
I’m mixed with.
SB: What is the ethnicity of most of your
clients?
T:
White. Some of my clients are Black, but I mostly chose white clients usually because Black clients are too cheap.
They usually want more for less money, from time to time I’ll have Black clients, but most of my clients are white.
SB: What class background are your white
clients from?
T:
Anywhere to poor men, to someone who works in an office in a corporation, to someone from Hollywood. I’ve dated
all different kinds of men: married, gay. I’ve even dated a woman. I’ve dated couples.
SB: How was your experience with the woman?
T:
She found out I wasn’t a [genetic] woman. We didn’t actually have sex. We kissed, touched, fondled,
and hugged. That’s why I’m not with her anymore because she wanted a genetic woman. This woman, who
was Filipina, had become a regular; she wanted to experience being with a woman, so she approached me one night. At
first I didn’t notice her because I was talking to some guys, and the guys told me that she was trying to pick me up.
That night we hugged, kissed, and talked; she paid me. We exchanged numbers and she paid to see me everyday. We
never had sex because I knew that she knew I wasn’t [a genetic woman], so we didn’t. I had a feeling she
felt I was a guy. After a while she dumped me, I thought that she would love the fact that I’m transgender, but
she didn’t. I haven’t seen her since.
SB: Has that been the case when you tell
people that you aren’t a genetic woman- that people are turned off?
T:
Yes, a majority of people are turned off, especially the men. Once the men find out I’m transgender, it’s
like, “Oh, it’s been nice knowing you. You’re a real nice person, but I can’t do it.”
When they say they can’t do it, I don’t think they mean that they can’t do it sexually, because I know they
could. They mean socially, they can’t have me as a girlfriend.
SB: Do your Johns know that you’re
transgender?
T:
Most of them do now, but not all the time. When I first started prostituting I wouldn’t tell them, but since I’ve
been working in San Francisco I tell them.
SB: Why wouldn’t you tell Johns that
you’re transgender?
T:
Because they wouldn’t date me, or they felt they could get it cheaper.
SB: What have you found the overall attitude
among the Black community in relation to sex workers and transgender people?
T:
[Laughs] Of course, darling. I get more prejudice from them then any other culture.
SB: [Smiling] Well, I know that, but people
reading this book might not know that.
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T:
They’re very homophobic, but I get a lot of men that tell me that I make them real upset. It’s usually something
in them, because I’ve had the very same men approach me when we were alone somewhere else. It also depends on—and
I hate to say this—it often depends on the class of the Black people I’m dealing with. Poor Black people
let me have it, the middle class is kind of fifty-fifty, but the Black people with money—the rich Blacks—they
don’t care ‘cause they’re enjoying life anyway. They still wouldn’t have me as their wife or
girlfriend, it’s still taboo. They would accept a murderer before they would accept a transgender person, we’re
at the bottom of the token pole. You don’t get any lower than a Black queen or a Black gay or lesbian.
I have more problems with other Black transgender women, those relationships
haven’t been working out too well, and I would just as well let them go. A lot of Black transgender women have
low self-esteem, and a lot [of] problems. They tend to hurt people around them.
The ones that I’ve encountered come from broken homes, poor
homes, uneducated homes. I can’t deal [with] them; it becomes a problem. I try to be friends with them,
but it’s hard. I’ve also encountered hostility because I’m mixed. They notice that before they
notice I’m transgender. Many of them aren’t that passable to pass into mainstream as a genetic woman, so
they have low self-esteem or a chip on their shoulder. But I can pass, so they take their anger out on me.
Now, I keep my distance from many Black transgender women.
SB: That’s too bad. It seems
there should be more of a stronger community.
T:
But it’s not. We catch so much hell as Black transgender women, from society, and the Black community within itself,
until they just lash out at each other instead of putting that energy into something positive. I refuse to be a part
of that.
SB: You haven’t heard of COYOTE, right?
T:
No.
SB: [I tell her about COYOTE after the interview]
Do you think you would ever go to some kind of conference about sex workers? Usually at these conferences there aren’t
that many women of color.
T:
Maybe. It would depend on how my pocket book looked. If I weren’t in need of any money, then yeah, I would go
just out of curiosity.
SB: Do you think it’s true that most
transgender women are prostitutes?
T:
In the Black community I think that’s true because most of the time they come from broken homes. Often their families
don’t want anything to do with them, and they’re poor because of that.
SB: If you felt that you had another outlet
to make money besides prostitution, would you take it?
T:
Yeah, but I would have to be economically stable in order to make that change.
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SB: How much money do you make?
T:
It varies. Sometimes it’s slow, other times it’s good. Sometimes I don’t date them, I just clip
(pick pocket) a John . I may have got $700, $60, or $5. There have been times where I didn’t make anything,
then I’ve had times where I’ve actually worked and made about $900. It depends on what mood I’m in.
Sometimes I’m juiced to go out and work, other times it makes me sick to my stomach. Sometimes I get very angry
and violent—that’s when I take what I want.
SB: Do you like your job?
T:
No, I don’t like it—period. I do it because I have to, and now it’s probably become a habit.
I’ve never liked it. I’ve had some clients that I’ve enjoyed, but it’s not right for me.
I’m not saying prostitution isn’t right, it’s just not right for me. I think they should legalize
it, I think prostitution should be a woman’s choice, but I don’t feel I have a choice.
SB: If you did have a choice what kind of
job would you see yourself doing?
T:
I don’t know, there’s so many things that I want to do. I kind of got lost, I’m 31 years old.
I had a lot of goals when I first started off, but I just got lost in the shuffle, just going through the bullshit of life
being transgender.
SB: How does one get lost in the shuffle?
How does that actually happen?
T: Drugs, having different boyfriends,
just working the streets period. Having quick fast money.
SB: What were your goals when you first started?
T:
I wanted to do many things. I was an honor roll student in high school, I was very active in school. I’ve
had some college. I hadn’t really made up my mind what I wanted to do, I’m good a lot of different things,
at least I was then. I haven’t exercised my brain in so long, I’m not sure where my skills are at now.
SB: What college did you go to?
T:
Well, I went to Santa Rosa Junior College, and Santa Monica Junior College. I was still trying to apply myself, and
that’s when I was going through my transition, and my sexuality—it was very difficult. That’s why
I didn’t stay in school because I wasn’t getting any support mentally at the school or at home. Everything
was new to me. When you’re transgender, it’s like you were born a woman all your life, and suddenly you’re
starting a whole new life. It might hit you at the age of 17, 18, or 19. I was just interested in becoming
more of a woman and meeting men, because I didn’t have my family there to support me, and be there for me.
SB: Do you feel like you were finding support
in these men you were dating?
T:
No. Well, some of them, but not really. I found support in other girls that were like me. They showed me
about the streets, and taught me about becoming more of a woman, which normally your Mom would teach you that when you’re
a little girl.
SB: What did you find difficult in terms
of adjustment from your pervious gender, to becoming transgender?
T:
The way people look at me. The reaction from society, I didn’t find it difficult to make the transition.
I never thought I was a woman, and when I was little I used to think that I did want to be a woman. Now I’m
at the point—and I have been for some time—where I’ll never be a woman. I am comfortable not having
a complete sex change because most of the sex changes they [transgender women] have don’t work. You can’t
have a baby; you can’t climax. So, what the hell do I need with a pussy? I’ll still look the same.
I can still go to the beach, I go to the beach wearing a two-piece bathing suit, and no one [will] give me a second look.
Well, they do, but not more then usual. There are also a lot of men who like bodies like mine, but they’re in
the closet. Especially, when it comes to Black men, and that’s mainly what I prefer: Black men. I’ve
been in a relationship for seven years, and this man is still in the closet. Only his sister and Mom know about me,
but not his friends.
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SB: Do you feel you lost a since of male
privilege when you made the transition into being a woman in terms of experiencing violence, economic privilege?
T:
I feel I have more privileges now being a woman because most men think with their dicks. I don’t care how much
money they have, or how educated they are, they think with their fucking cocks. If I can see that I can manipulate that,
I will.
SB: Do you feel your life changed living
as a woman?
T:
No, because I’ve never lived as a man. I remember being small and people would tell my mom that she had the prettiest
little girl, and my mom would get defensive and say, “He ain’t no girl! That’s my little boy.”
Maybe at one point I lived as a gay man, but I didn’t like that either. Gay men want a man, but I’ve always
looked like a woman.
SB: What kind of people do you socially date?
T:
Black men. I’ve dated poor men, rich men, dope dealers, thugs, ex-cons. [Laughs] I’ve dated
all kinds of men.
SB: Were all these men accepting of you being
transgender?
T:
Well, in most of these cases I was their secret. Most of these men think they are straight, or in the closet.
SB: Do you feel closer to openly queer Black
men as oppose to straight Black men?
T:
I’m close to Black gays and lesbians. I have met some straight Black women that I get along with.
SB: What is your family background in relation
to class?
T:
My family is middle-class, but very dysfunctional. My mom is a lesbian and her parents died when she was very young.
My mom went through a lot of problems when I was growing up, and my father is white, but I’ve never seen him.
So, he was never there, and my mom wasn’t either because she left to explore her sexuality. You know, all
of that bullshit, ‘cause this was in the 60s. When I was twelve and thirteen I used to wonder why there were so
many women in the house, why didn’t she have any men around [smile] I was having these sexual feelings towards
men myself, so I wondered. I was raised by my great-great aunt. I call her my grandmother, and she
did the best she could. But I never suffered for anything financial.
When I was cut off from my family, that just dramatized me.
I spoke to my father once on the phone, and he said to me, “If I had been there I wonder if you would have ended up
the way you did!” but I knew I would have. I knew I was different since I was five years old, I knew I liked
boys. I was also molested by some boys at thirteen and fourteen, but even before then I knew I was different.
A lot of people would think that because you were raped or molested or your father wasn’t there, that’s why you’re
the way you are. But that wasn’t the ‘cause, I had cousins and uncles around me. My grandmother use
to think that because my mom was queer one of her children would be, but I think that’s a bunch of shit. Because
if that’s the case, then which one of my mother’s parents were?
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SB: Did your mom ever tell you she was a
lesbian?
T:
No, my grandmother told me in a negative way and it bothered me. Even though I had these [queer] feelings within myself,
I didn’t like it. Everybody wants their parents to be perfect parents, so I didn’t like the fact that my
mother was a lesbian. I didn’t speak to her for a long time. My mother accepted me for what people assumed
was my being gay, but she wouldn’t accept me for being a queen. She had friends who were queens, but she couldn’t
accept me on that level. I think she has accepted me now. I still keep in contact with her.
SB: But she doesn’t financially help
you out?
T:
Oh, hell no. She’s struggling herself. My grandmother financially raised me, but my mother had a lot
of problems. She’s a Black woman, lesbian from the South, both her parents are dead, and the family members that
raised her are mostly alcoholics. She probably shouldn’t have had any children, but she did.
SB: Are you an only child?
T:
No, I have a brother and two sisters. She gave up one of my sisters for adoption, I had always thought I was the oldest
before I found this out.
SB: How have your siblings accepted you being
transgender?
T:
My sister isn’t wrapped too tight [laughs]. My mother had x-rays while she was pregnant with her, and took a lot
of drug prescriptions. I don’t think she likes it, but she accepts me. She used to look up to me a lot because
my mother was gone. I don’t really know how she feels, but we don’t argue or fight. My brother loves
me and accepts me, but I know he doesn’t like me being transgender. He used to look up to me, and I know he would
like for me to be his big brother and go out with a bunch of ho’s and his friends [we both laugh] You know,
that bullshit. But I know he loves and accepts me. Sometimes when he gets out of line I have to put him in check
because I’m older than him. We have a big age difference and he used to admire me as a man. I use to model
as a man, and he’s seen how girls used to look at me, and lust after me. Suddenly, I just left and returned with
long hair and titties, ass and hips, telling him to call me Tyra.
SB: How do you deal with stress?
T:
I laugh a lot, I smoke pot to calm me down. I used to fear people finding out what I was, it used to wear me out.
But now I don’t care because I’m happy with who I am. The only thing they can really say is that I’m
a man, because the majority of the time they don’t know I’m a hooker. And if they do, I don’t give
a fuck, ‘cause men explore transgender sexually anyway. Most men are in the closet anyway, once they find out
that you’re transgender all they want to do is have a session with you and get it over with. When many Black queens
do have a relationship with a man, [the men] have usually been in and out of prison, or they’re poor. I deserve
more than that, I’m accustomed to living one way – I was raised to live one way. That’s probably
the reason that pushes me to prostitution.
SB: Do you find it hard to have relationships
with men?
T:
Of course. I could have married a rich man and lived up on the hills if it wasn’t for this cock I have between
my legs. If society would accept transgenders, I wouldn’t be a hooker.
SB: Do you find empowerment in your job?
T:
Yeah, I’m in total control of the situation. I can say when it’s time to stop, and they pay me. Sometimes
I feel like I’m not empowered, and they just used me and went home to their wife and gave her the fur coat, the diamonds,
or the new Porsche---after they laid up with me and sucked dick or fucked or whatever, and gave me $150 or 200 dollars.
SB: What would you like to be doing ten years
from now? Do you see yourself still prostituting?
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T:
I see myself prostituting until I leave the man I’m with now, and get me a better man, or this man starts making more
money. The man I’m with now is a poor Black man. I’ve been with him for seven years. He knew
me before I was hustling, I couldn’t live the way we were living before. Even though he works full time, and I’m
unemployed, he’ll have his hand stuck out for car fare, bills. He works in a furniture store, his job is really
physical, he moves around a lot of furniture. Before I met him I had stopped prostituting and got a job as a bartender,
I was still living with my mother. When I met him he was on crack, and I had just cleaned up my act. He later
cleaned up his act and got a job, but it still wasn’t enough to live on. HeH
He gets paid kimbles and bits, he doesn’t provide any stability
for me to make that change in my life. I’ve tried with him to change our situation, but it didn’t work. I’ve
had the opportunity to be with someone else who would provide me with that stability, but I didn’t love them.
I don’t know when I’ll get that stability, and if I ever get it, I know I want my own business. I don’t
want to work for anyone else, especially not a white man. I’m independent, I would never want to depend on a man
giving me money, ‘cause just as he can give it to me, he can take it away from me. My family was the first
ones to take money away from me, I don’t want to go through that again. That’s why I’m still
hookin’.
SB: Do you feel as if you’re supporting
both you and your man in this relationship?
T:
No, not really. He’s just doesn’t know how to manage money; he’s older than me and just comes to me
when he’s broke. I only work when I really need money: when a bill needs to be paid, when I want a new outfit,
food, some pot.
SB: How does it feel psychology to be bumped
down a class? How would you define your current class?
T:
Oh, I’m poor, honey! [laughs] Ain’t no shame in that. I’m dramatized, but I deal with
it or else I would be go crazy or be dead. I’m still here.
SB: I ask that question because I know many
Black people don’t want to identify as poor because of the negative images and stereotypes already existing about poor
Black people. Have you thought about going back to school?
T:
I’ve tried and that’s when I got sick with HIV. I can’t afford to go to school right now. I
know it would be hard and difficult, but in my heart I really want to. I never wanted to do this.
SB: How did contract HIV and how did you
find out?
T:
I’m not sure how I got it. I kind of blamed the man I’m with now because when I first got with him, I heard
rumors that he had it. We’ve been screwing for five years without condoms, so if I had full blown AIDS then I’m
sure he has it – he has Herpes. But I stopped blaming him because I had experiences with different men in the
past. Even before AIDS became an epidemic, I was having unsafe sex. I used to be really angry at him, but I had
to let that go.
I found out about a year and a half ago, and I kind of knew all along
I had it because I had friends that died of it. I didn’t get any help until it really took a toll on me.
I had to go to a doctor, my hair fell out, I lost weight, I was pale---I almost died. I went to UCSF and the doctor---the
blond white doctor whom I was afraid of at first, brought me back to life with the new medications.
SB: Did you have a fear of doctors before
you went to UCSF?
T:
I didn’t want to hear that I had it, even though I knew. I could feel my body deteriorate. I didn’t
have a fear of doctors, but I know many Black people do. Many Black people don’t trust white physicians, but if
I want to live I’m going to have to go somewhere.
SB: During the hype of AIDS in the early
80s did you feel that you had access to knowledge to prevent getting HIV?
T:
Well, at first it was thought to be just a white gay disease. I had the knowledge, but being transgender many people
think that the men they sleep with are only having sex with women-they think these men aren’t prone to getting AIDS.
That’s how I got it. I felt that if I had a boyfriend he was only going to be with me, so we didn’t need
to use condoms. But I should have always been using condoms.
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SB: Did you use condoms with Johns?
T:
Oh, of course. I mostly didn’t use condoms with men I dated, and a few times I haven’t with Johns because
I thought they were attractive or I was very intoxicated. But after I was diagnosed, I’ve always used condoms.
I don’t even give oral sex without one. I don’t care how much money he’s spending.
I don’t care how much a nigga I’m dating tells me he loves me – it’s a no-no. Now with the man
I’m dating now, we use condoms. When I work, men still want me to have sex with them without a condom, they offer
me more money, but I refuse. When I first found out I was HIV positive I didn’t want to live, but I thought of
my little niece and the thought of her and my family made me want to live.
SB: Do you think doing outreach to prostitutes
makes a difference?
T:
Yeah, it makes a difference everywhere. They really need to go to high schools—especially the Black ones.
Black youth should be the number one issue. Black people aren’t educated about AIDS because sex is a taboo in
our culture, it’s not talked about I didn’t learn about sex at home, I learned about it from the streets. The
church has a lot to do with why Black kids aren’t educated about sex. Black people were converted to Christianity
when they were brought here. Many young Black people still think AIDS is a [white] gay disease. They
think it won’t happen to them. I had a young Black guy try to date me without a condom. I asked him
why he didn’t want to use one? He said it wouldn’t feel the same. Many guys think they can have sex
with a woman and use the withdrawal method. Many Black men are self-destructive anyway because they don’t feel
like they have much to live for.
SB: How did issues of self-esteem play a
role in your HIV status?
T:
I had a low self-esteem about my sexuality, being transgender and how society looks down upon that. Not being a woman,
but just being transgender. I liked myself as a person, though. But now that I have HIV it makes me appreciate
life more.
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